Just stopping in.

I feel like I am learning how to be a normal person. I spent so many years striving to be a good Christian. Now, I am finding that I want a more real relationship with God than I had. I also want to be able to relate to regular people better, not always having the goal of getting them to come to my church. I didn't really want that, so I lived in tension.

What I am really striving for right now is learning how to relate with God as a person, as opposed to "developing my spiritual life." I am trying to acknowledge my nakedness as I talk with him. I love the idea we spoke about a few months ago at the Spring about having a cup of coffee with God, with Jesus. At that time, we were talking about introducing people to Jesus, and recommending that they have a cup of coffee with him to get to know him and to see if they would like to spend more time with him. This is in contrast to recommending that they marry him later this afternoon. As I have thought more about it, I have taken it into my own world to ponder/have coffee with him. I am still working out what this looks like, but I am trying to talk with God more straight up. Listening is more challenging. It takes intentionality and diligence.

Time for the more active part of the day to start.